My shitty ex gallbladder and letting go of the past

Over the 6 years or so I’d spend some time in counseling and my counselor would say “You need to cut the cord.” And I would retort “The cord is cut! ” Most of the time believing that I had actually done this. Time heals all wounds. So as time goes on you really believe you’ve done this but all that garbage has to go somewhere. I believe that somewhere is the gall bladder. Its like the junk yard for negative thoughts. A place where they can hide  and then release in the bile that our miraculous body produces.

I just spent the last week on the “road to recovery.” I think  i’m pretty good at this. After all, I spend my days telling patient how to do this. Go slow.  Eat, Drink, Pee, Poop, move and sleep. This is key. But until now it never dawned on me that maybe I should also be talking to them about putting the past in the past, dealing with their frustration and anger.

The gallbladder is a little sac that stores bile from the liver, and it’s found just beneath your liver. The gallbladder releases bile, via the cystic duct, into the small intestine to help break down the foods you eat — particularly fatty foods.
Typically the gallbladder doesn’t cause too many problems or much concern, but if something slows or blocks the flow of bile from the gallbladder, a number of problems can result and lead to gallbladder disease.
My gallbladder looked like a garbage dump.

Gallbladder Meridian

According to traditional Chinese medicine (TCM), specific organs have a two hour time period when the Qi (energy) is at its peak in that meridian. The gallbladder meridian is most active between 11 p.m. and 1 a.m. The liver meridian is most active between 1 a.m. and 3 a.m.  Consistently waking during these hours is an indication that the gallbladder or liver is out of balance. When the energy of a meridian is not flowing well due to a block such as unhealthy eating, toxic overload or stress, you’ll experience a sign or symptom from the meridian(s) involved.

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Better Medicine add a pinch of holistic

The last few weeks for me have been the scariest of my life. After not feeling good for a few days I took myself to the urgent care center to be told to get my butt directly to the er. Which i did, after i went home and let my dog out to relieve himself I drove my self directly to the er where people asked me at least 50 times “Did I drive there.”

I knew something bad was wrong but apparently I had no idea how bad but after a lot of blood work,  X-rays , a ct scan and a ultrasound i was told my gallbladder was a mess and it had to come out.

So great. For the last 33 years i had managed to stay out of the hospital. I had managed to not have a primary care physician for the last four years. Just the thought of going to the doctor and getting berated and yelled at totally bummed me out.   I was very spoiled when I lived in Boca. I knew everyone especially the integrative docs and I knew they were willing to at least have a conversation with me. I had however, been seeing an acupuncture doc and trying to work on what i thought was my issues after getting a really bad case of shingles last feb. I wanted to heal myself from the inside out. And i was and I felt great, Until I didn’t.

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Healthcare workers: Listen don’t judge

As a nurse,   I  get to interact with all kinds of patients. Many who make a full time job of going to the doctors. those who hate going to the doctors, those who go and don’t listen, those who go and follow all instructions to a t.
As a patient. I’m a bad patient. Not really really bad. I just have a lot of disagreements with what is the right path. And honestly I don’t want to hear it. I don’t want to be talked to – i want to have a conversation.

My first  trip to the hospital in 33  years had to do with a nasty gallbladder. All kinds of health care practitioners marched into my room in the er and even my sister remarked “well you won’t be eating that food anymore.”

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